Альбом Taproot

When I look into your eyes, you help me realize
Ensure me of just how to be myself inside
I’m in control of everything
It’s taking time but that’s ok
I can bring you to my side

You’re my blessing in disguise
You’re mine (You’re mine)
You’re mine (You’re mine)

You’re my blessing in disguise
You make me realize
Just how and where I want to be
Years from now

When my focal point is set
I’m something I know I'll get
It’s not a question of how but more of when
You're a hot commodity
The choice is mine and mine for keeps
I can bring you to my side

You’re my blessing in disguise
You’re mine (You’re mine)
You’re mine (You’re mine)

You’re my blessing in disguise
You make me realize
Just how and where I want to be
Years from now

When I look into your eyes, you help me realize
And show me just where my dedication lies
I’m in control of everything it’s taking toll but that’s ok
I can bring you to my side

You’re my blessing in disguise
You’re mine (You’re mine)
You’re mine (You’re mine)

You’re my blessing in disguise
You make me realize
Just how and where I want to be
Years from now

Overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
In an hour i'll be ok
I pray this pain will go away permanently someday
I've seen more than...
I should have to...
I've seen this on my own

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain,
i hope you'll be ok someday,
so i can say that you moved on in the right way...
WE'VE seen this and
WE'VE breathed this and
WE'VE lived this on our own...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...
your own...

BREAK...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

Grown up an only child
One parent home my style was spoiled and doubted
Untrusted neglected by others around

You saved
You saved me

You were the only one there for me
Loved me dearly treated and supported me right through the thick and the thin

Look at me now
I hope you're proud
You're everything to me

Taught to be myself
Showed independent
Health alone through struggles made it work
Ourselves just a mother and child

Occasionally I feel like the walls around are closing in on me
Physically I feel sometimes I need seclusion to be free
The irony at last I see reality is my perception
And my personality is my reflection

I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today
I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today

I need to be set free from the smiles that are scarring my skin sarcastically
And cause it seems to comfort and freeze in full around me mentally
The irony at last I see reality is my deception
And my personality is my deflection

I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today
I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today

Can I make it?
I'll try
Can I take it?
I'll try

I finally feel my wounds are healing, releasing and pouring out of me
The pressure's success becoming apparently a bigger part of me
I'm looking back at the things that I can't remove
My past's ok with me
The future's brighter than I could imagine it to be

I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today
I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today

If life was a game, could I win in the end?
And if I was sane, would I fuck it up all over again?
These questions and answers can help me redefine myself
And I thank your open ears for all their help

(NO MORE SHAME)
It's what I see for myself
I need to change for my health
I need a better way of life for myself

If I stay the same, how long will I last?
Yet if I change will I still just be alone and typecast?
Professional answers cant help me to design myself
So I thank your open arms for all their help

(NO MORE SHAME)
It's what I see for myself
I need to change for my health
I need a better way of life for myself

Caressing gateways of the mind
Over, enter through spaces time
Heals wounds inspiring gifts of light
Inside myself just need some time
(just need some time to myself)
To figure it out, cause I’ve got no doubt
That when my dreams come true it's because of you
And the fact that I let you

(No, NO, MORE SHAME)
It's what I see for myself
I need to change for my health
I need a better way of life for myself
Caressing gateways of our minds
Over, enter through spaces time Heals wounds inspiring gifts of light

Can't seem to find myself in the smoke filled room again
The lesson of being bored and naïve so I've been told
Its just my own problem
That I succumb from the bottom
Looking up at the reflection above of those below

Yeah well I know, there’s no point in rushing
I'll get my chance when
The time is right
I'll get mine
in no time
I want to shine
With you by my side

When is how…

I hide away
I push myself on everyday
The lesson in time will be the mystery
Lost in this missing things
By doing things created
Looking up at the reflection above of those below

Yeah well I know, there’s no point in rushing
I'll get my chance when
The time is right
I'll get mine
in no time
I want to shine
With you by my side

Now and then
Then is now
Now and then
Then is now
Now for when
When is now I know

The time is right
I'll get mine
in no time
I want to shine
With you by my side

Why did I let you inside my life
How could I let you inside my body my soul my brain
Now I cant make you go away
You are driving me insane and inside out…
I can tell
Its meaningful and so hurtful
There's no place just to hide

I can tell you right now that this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind
I can tell you right now that it's physical and painful to be so vulnerable

Oh this is my fault
Oh this is my fault

How could I lie to myself again
These bad decisions a never ending story
You think I'd know by now just how to bow
to smile
You are driving me insane and inside out…because
It's meaningful and so hurtful
There's no place just to hide

I can tell you right now that this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind
I can tell you right now that its physical and painful to be so vulnerable
I can tell you this pain is so unreal cant help but feel left all alone
I can tell you to listen to me when I say to you I know

This is my fault
Oh this is my fault

I know this is my fault (x 4)

I can tell you right now that this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind
I can tell you right now that it's physical and painful to be so vulnerable
I can tell you this pain is so unreal can't help but feel left all alone
I can tell you to listen to me when I say to you I know

This is my fault
Oh this is my fault
Oh this is my fault
Oh this is my fault
Oh this is my fault

What I excel in best
Is my excessiveness
Self deprecation
I hate myself sometimes
How can I be down when all that I want is in my reach
What's wrong with me?
Fuck it

Sometimes I can feel so touch and go
Sometimes I feel my self esteem is low
Sometimes...at least I know sometimes I'm beautiful
Beautiful

And if I wasn’t me
I’d still just laugh at me
And point the finger
And blame myself as well
I will not succumb to any of my peers
I’m in control
and I'm losing it
Fuck it

Sometimes I can feel so touch and go
Sometimes as my self esteem is low
Sometimes…well at least I know sometimes I’m beautiful
Beautiful
Sometimes as my feelings coincide
Sometimes while I struggle to survive
Sometimes…well at least I know sometimes I’ll be alright
Be alright (x 4)

Jealousy is raining down on me right now
As the fear of losing you is setting in
But I'll continue to do my best
Although it's scary
Wondering if this will be the very first time to lose
And not to win
And I've got no back up plan

But I’m… not a quitter
I'm not a quitter

I try to scream but I can’t breathe…
Can anybody hear me?
I try to dream but I can’t sleep…
Can anyone shield me?
I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself
My pride’s in the shitter
But I…
Won't quit, never quit

Confidence is coming back to me right now
As the strength to earning you is coming to
Cause I’ve continued to do my best
Although it was scary wondering if this will be my very first time to win
And not to lose
Cause I’ve got no back up plan.

But I’m…Not a quitter
I'm not a quitter

I try to scream but I can’t breathe…
Can anybody hear me?
I try to dream but I can’t sleep…
Can anyone shield me?
I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself
My pride’s in the shitter
But I…
Won't quit, never quit

Confidence is coming back to me right now
As the fear of losing you is setting in
But I'll continue to do my best
Although it's scary
Wondering if this will be my very first time to win
And not to lose

I try to scream but I can't breathe
Can anybody hear me?
I try to dream but I can't sleep
Can anyone shiled me?
I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself
My pride's in the shitter

But I won't quit
Never quit

You look like me
I'm sorry for you
You talk like me
I cant understand you
You think like me
You're fucking crazy
You want to be me
But that’s ok because

You remind me of me
Someway
But only the good
Cause I'm just me

Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me to see inside myself
Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me to see…

You act like me
Cause you're embarrassing
You talk to me
But don’t listen
You think like me
You're so damn crazy
You want to be me
But that’s ok because…

You remind me of me
Someway
But only the good
Cause I'm just me

Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me to see inside myself
Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me too see…

When these memories become liquid
dreams just like fantasies
And like fallen leaves I guess all
I need is to find my desires
and set out to acquire them

You look like me
I'm sorry for you
You think like me
But that’s ok because…

You remind me of me
Someway
But only the good
Cause I'm just me

Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me to see inside myself
Hanging by a thread for your honor
Just helps me to see inside myself

Confusing reality...
I see myself but it's not really me
How could it be?
When I am me?
I guess maybe it's just a dream

(come on come on, come on wake up wake up)
And things aren't what they seem
(come on come on, come on wake up wake up)
And people are fake too

I doubt my own dreams
I lie in my sleep
And I don't sleep to dream
Yet everything that I see is haunting

Bad dreams controlling in this world
I see the depths of it my toes curl
I feel so sick
I'm sick of this because I know I'm not asleep

(come on come on, come on wake up wake up)
Things aren't what they seem

I doubt my own dreams
although
I lie in my sleep
And I don't sleep to dream
Yet everything that I see is haunting

Time
Just a counter-clockwise in motion
Time
It requires strength, love, and devotion
Time
A dictation of every person
Time
Is used to make us free again

When we can turn back time, to any time
By moving on inside
And will we still ask why about the time
Or be just fine inside of our minds?

Time
Grows things older, faster when you find it
Time
It's wasting away while we spend it
Time
A reflection of our past with it
Time
Is used to make things right again

When we can turn back time, to any time
By moving on inside
And will we still ask why about the time
Or be just fine inside of our minds?

I can see this coming over my mind
Cause you're right
It's life, my light

When we can turn back time, to any time
By moving on inside
And will we still ask why about the time
Or be just fine inside

When we can turn back time, to any time
By moving on inside
And will we still ask why about the time
Or be just fine inside of our minds?

Our minds
Because you're right
Inside our minds
Minds