Альбом Stephanie McIntosh

So welcome to my nightmare
My heaven and my hell
This passionate contradiction
Of bitter sweet is where I dwell
You choose a day like today
To get me upset
The more I love you
More I hate you
More it scares me to death

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I can't keep fighting this battle with you
I can't hear words when scream like you do
If I cry will you hold me just like we rehearsed?
So do I
So do I say sorry first?

I'm flawed
I'm so imperfect
But I ain't insecure
Your jealous heart is poisoned
Tell me how could I trust you more?

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Sometimes I think we feel too much
Too deep
This all-consuming love
Can't breathe
So angry
So frustrated
How we got here?

Hear me
And listen to what I say
From my heart
And I swear to you that won't change
I hope you learn to trust somebody. . .

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Rush in
Way too fast
Why do I always do it?
Thinking this might last
How could I be so stupid?

But this time
I'm not OK, no
I need to breathe again
'Cause I don't want to

I don't want to make another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate, but love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be
Alone again
No I don't want to make another mistake
Like you

Stone cold
And hurt inside
Not what I wanted to be
I don't sleep
Its kinda hard when you cry
Yeah that's where you left me

But this time
It's not alright, no
I need to find someone
'Cause I don't want to

I don't want to make another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate, but love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be
Alone again
No I don't want to make another mistake
Like you

Don't wanna be caught in the moment it never comes
Is it too much to ask
That real love could find me?
I won't get stung?
I'll find the one

but...

I don't want to make another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate, but love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be
Alone again
No I don't want to make another mistake
Like you

I don't want to make another mistake like you
And I dont want to hate, but love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be
Alone again
No I don't want to make another mistake...

It doesn't matter
That you had the courage to tell me
The easy way out
Was to free up your guilt, laid it on me

What do I care?
If it didn't really mean a thing why'd you do it?
I'm standing here
Looking at someone who doesn't
Know they blew it, yeah

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You should have lied
Cause' your stupid mistake
Made my world crash down
Now its goodbye
No you can't take it back
Once the truth has come out of your mouth
So you tried to be honest
But honesty blew it this time
You should have lied

If a tree falls inside of a forest and nobody hears it
It wont affect anybody 'cause no one will miss it

What would I care
If you were dying from the guilt of keeping a secret?
This isn't fair
'cause now I've gotta be the one dealing with it, oh

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I don't get it
Where was your conscience when
You were with her
Couldn't you hear it scream out?

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It doesn't matter
That you had the courage to tell me

Wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin'
Planning and dreamin' each night of his charms
That won't get you into his arms
So if your're looking to find love you can share
All you gotta do is hold him and kiss him and love him
And show him that you care

Show him that you care just for him
Do the things that he likes to do.
Wear your hair just for him
'Cause you won't get him, thinkin' and a-prayin',
Wishin' and hopin'

Just wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin'
Planning and dreamin' his kisses will start
That won't get you into his heart!
So if you're thinking how great true love is
All you gotta to is
Hold him, and kiss him and squeeze him and love him
Just do it and after you do
You will be his

Show him that you care just for him
Do the things that he likes to do
Wear your hair just for him
'Cause you won't get him, thinkin' and a-prayin',
Wishin' and hopin'

Just wishin' and hopin' and thinkin' and prayin'
Planning and dreamin'
His kisses will start
That won't get you into his heart
So if you're thinking how great true love is
All you gotta to is
Hold him, and kiss him, and squeeze him and love him
Just do it and after you do
You will be his

You will be his.

You will be his!

I'm drowning in metaphors, angry coz you didn't show, you're late again yeah
And the tears streaming down my face, I'm displaced like I feel I'm soaking wet
If you don't love me won't you leave?
I have tried but I can't seem to say Goodbye

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I stand out in the rain here for hours
Looking like I feel inside
I can't give anymore than my heart
You shattered it a million times
At least you can see that I'm crying
Out in the rain

I'm drowning in metaphors, angry coz stupid me's a fool again
Yeah I got to get over this, though I've missed you a little now and then
If I could just fall out of love I would leave
I have tried but I can't seem to say Goodbye

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I can't seem to walk away from all of this pain

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I stand out in the rain here for hours
Looking like I feel inside
I can't give anymore than my heart
You shattered it a million times
At least you can see that I'm crying
At least you can see that I'm dying
Out in the rain

I'm drowning in metaphors, angry coz you didn't show, you're late again
I'm drowning in metaphors, angry coz you didn't show, you're late again

I see the blue in your eyes
Baby what are you hiding?
I catch a glimspe of the truth
And it don't look good, no
I feel the ground fall away

As you fight back the tears
And choke the words

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You don't love me
You can't say it
After all this time
You don't want me
You can't mean it
Tell me your lied
Yesterday everything
Seemed so ok
How can it be that today
You don't love me?

I thought that I really knew
Who you were, baby
But now my world is a mess
And I'm going down
I can't bear to believe

There's nobody else
The reason is...

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You've shattered my heart
And you've left it for dead
The truth is I've been misled
You don't love me

How could we get so close
And end up as strangers?
How could something so good end up like this?

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You've shattered my heart
And you've left it for dead
The truth is I've been misled
You don't love me

I am tired of tears and lies
And I think its time to let go of the past
I am scared a little but that's ok
I can smile
Now I can laugh

For with every touch of your gentle hand
I forget all the pain best I can

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A change is coming
I feel so free at last tonight
I start to see a future bright
I dare to dream
I catch my breath
Reborn I'm ready for what's next
And if they ask me why it's so
To every single question
The answer is you

I'm inspired by your ideas
And your strength empowers me
More than you know
I was lost but somehow you found me out
I'm alive
I'm ready to go
And with every kiss I lose track of time
Guess I'm leaving my old life behind

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And I'm elated by the world of possibilities I see
You make me wanna be the best
That I could ever hope to be

I feel it coming

Yeah I can I feel it

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How I wake in the morning,
How I won't see the space that gave me hope here in my bed
How I make my cup of coffee,
How I walk to the subway and not miss you hold my hand.

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God only knows
I fall in, I freak out
Too deep I cannot climb out
You told me you loved me, I thought that meant you loved me
My stupid heart breaks
When will I ever learn to let go
God only knows

God only knows

How I wander the sidewalk
How I make it to work on time now that you're gone
When I can't make my car start
When I can't pay the rent of how it like I want

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Standing in the pouring rain, I'm fighting back the tears that I get
I thought the love would last forever
Please, I can't seem to:..Breathe.
I fall in, I freak out
Yeah

I fall in, I freak out
Too deep I cannot climb out
You told me you loved me, I thought that meant you loved me
When will I ever learn to let go
God only knows
God only knows
Yeah

Silence shattered like it's glass
My world was captured like a photograph
When I saw you
Eyes of oceans pulled me in

The riptide was strong
And though I fought it for a second or two
You stole me with a glance and it was done
I was overcome by you...

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Breathe me in and breathe me out
Crave and desire what I yearn for
Pray that I might feel the same
'Cos everynight and everyday
I wait for you
Looking for someone I almost knew
Why do I run, overcome?

The moments happen then they pass
But my obsession doesn't go that fast
Who are you and do I ever cross your mind?

Find me alone and kiss me softly as I wake to truth
My sleep is dead, my life has just begun

I am overcome by you...

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How could I come so close?
What if I could spin the world like superman?
I let the moment go
Fast enough to fly me back to you again
I should have let it show
I would grab a hold and not let go...

Oh and kiss me softly as I wake to truth
My sleep is dead, my life has just begun

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With every breath
I breath you in and out
With every touch
I fall to deep in love
With every look
I lose a piece of my heart
Yet I don't know who you are
A strangers kiss is not a risk worth taking
But I'd kiss you for sure anyway
Why don't you steal this smile?
But swear you won't leave me alone
Or I would sink like a stone

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Silently you slip in
And totally change everything
Suddenly I hear you breathing
And now I am sinking like a stone

With every word
You spell out destiny
My world just spins
Into a crazy dream
With every hour
We talk until it is light
It's the perfect, perfect night
I'd never wish for you to be mistaken
But please god let you feel this way too
Softly you steal a kiss
I'm floored
I am gone
I am thrown
And I would sink like a stone

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Like a feather
That has fallen right at your feet
And like the rain
That tries to quench the thirst of the summer heat
What you say about a lifetime of someone to love?
I am sinking like a stone
Help me up

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In this moment,
Everything suddenly makes sense
All the random pieces in my life are falling into place
In an instant
I am flying high and scared to death
Coz I wonder if you feel it to
I wanna be a part of you

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If it's goodbye now forever
And I never get to see you again
If it's the last kiss
Before the world should end
I wanna thank you for the night of my life

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Well this feeling
Touch you and linger on your skin
Or like a feather in the wind
And blow away out into space
Will my memory
Haunt you and bring you back again
And I wonder if you need me to
Whether I'll be meeting you

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If it's goodbye now forever
And I never get to see you again
If it's the last kiss
Before the world should end
I wanna thank you for the night of my life

Ohh
Don't go away
Stay with me and the sun will rise
In your eyes I will be all you need

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If it's goodbye now forever
And I never get to see you again
If it's the last kiss
Before the world should end
I wanna thank you for the night of my life

Thank you

I keep dreaming that I'm falling
There's no safety net
You look up with arms wide open
Then you smile and walk away
I guess that Freud would have an answer
He'd say that I was twisted and
Confused and just insane
Couldn't blame him!
I feel like lately all the things I took for granted
Flipped and changed
Now I'm losing grip again...

Oh Oh
I'm walking a tightrope
Between who I love and what I know
Oh Oh
I'm watching the sharks lick their lips
As they circle far below...

I'd slip my skin and lose this face
If we could find a secret place to hide
Say the words I need to hear and
I would leave it all behind
My psychic says she sees disaster
My heart is begging that I take a giant leap of faith
See are you really worth the risk
Of losing everything I have
For what might be one stupid kiss?

Oh Oh
I'm walking a tightrope
Between who I love and what I know
Oh Oh
I'm watching the sharks lick their lips
As they circle far below...

I don't know why it is that you won't say you love me
I don't know what it is

I keep slipping back to you
When you're not good for me
I keep wanting what I can't have
Mr. Freud would you disagree?

Oh Oh
I'm walking a tightrope
Between who I love and what I know
Oh Oh
I'm watching the sharks lick their lips
As they circle far below...

I don't know why it is that you won't say you love me
I don't know what it is but this tightrope's got me