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Have you ever felt you were lost
Standing amongst the mass
Tried explaining the delicate thoughts
and hoping the pain will pass
All these feelings I live everyday
They echo inside my head
As I lye awake in bed
This is my life
guarded and weak
Frail Words I share
left exposing me
So now Im here
repairing the wounds
With this I give
my song to you
melodies and notes I create
Like images that unfold
Telling stories of lies and deceit
That eats away at my soul
Will the changing seasons replace
The deadening leaves of love
Or will I just stay this cold
On a stage built from hate
The rain just keeps falling
Will it ever wash away
I’ll tattoo it on me
To explain to the world
how I have been broken and betrayed
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Yesterday I found that poem you wrote
So meaningful the words that you spoke
Did you see the real side of me?
Or just create your own fantasy
I tried to believe we were meant to be
All that’s left is this tragedy
Forget to remember the times that we had
To love again and be free again
Forget to remember the times that we left
to love again and be free again
I’ve moved on found someone else
Someone who could let me be myself
Destiny changed suddenly
I’ve learned to grow planting brand new seeds
I tried to believe we were meant to be
All that’s left is this tragedy
Finally
no more tears to shed
From the lies you fed
Such a waste
of the times I spent
Giving you my best
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If I could show you emotions I’ve poured into love
I could fill up the seas and the infinite above
But now I stand here hatred and heartache my sin
From the scars I have gained
That I would not ever wish on anyone
I can’t bleed
All these things done to me
They’re trapped in this skin
And they’re wrapped around my veins
I can’t bleed
All these things done to me
They never will fade Like a cold dark winter’s day
If I could take back the innocence I’ve lost in my life
I would bury it deep so that it would never die
But now I stand here blackened and tainted like storm clouds
That tear through the sky With the tear like rain drops
falling all around
If these scars would heal I would cut this skin Just to see me bleed
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So much oppression that’s built upon greed you fail to see
What is more important than power and fame and all you claim
What are you planning to take with you when you end this game
You might find the answers when you reach the grave
And realize possessions they don’t mean a thing
No one gets out alive
Why can’t you see
We’re all destined to be A memory
That’s all you’re taking away From this place
Reach for the stars is what you have been told since infancy
You never bothered to question what for and why you dream
So you’re living life in a fantasy world where you’re the king
You’ll never realize cause you’re too blind to see
The end of your life is beginning to fray
With no fucking shame you still feed on the prey
The light at the end of your tunnel is fading away
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The breath of you
is burning through the skin
And all you do
is lingering within
You have become
the drug that makes me weak
You’re just too numb
to chance my honesty
Is truth too much to bare?
Does the past make you afraid?
In a perfect world you’re there
To make things okay
You tore me down then walked away
and could you see it’s killing me?
So hard I try to hide my cries
And could you see it’s killing me?
I can’t pretend
perfections not in me
I should have guessed
you wanted to believe
the words I said
you threw them all away
I’m holding on
You can’t be gone
The thought of it is terrifying
I’m all alone
These wretched walls
Reminding me that we can’t be
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Do you stop and think
This life could be over in just one blink?
Do you look around
And wonder if life will come crashing down?
Are you questioning The choices you make
and the dreams you seek?
Some might be right and some might be wrong
And all of this helps you to become strong
Keep on wishing for that storybook ending
Cherish it while you sleep
Do you fantasize
And wake up to find out there is no prize?
Is it all a game?
A gamble to find out what you can gain
Do you play it safe
Or take the risk knowing there will be pain?
You search for the key to unlock the answer
Only to find there’s still one more chapter
Soon you’ll find it’s over.
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Can’t find serenity
With all of these emotions
they’re haunting me
The faces tiring
It’s the same shit every day
with no ending
My patience growing weak
Don’t want the world to see
this happen to me
Leave this behind
Before saying goodbye
The anger changing me
Another day goes by
and I can’t break free
Seems like eternity
Before all this is over
and I can breath
And I can’t wait to break free from this
Cold dark place that we call our own world
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Take one last good look as my face starts to fade
And spare me from the reasons why I am to blame
Did you forget the past and what I did for you
and all you put me through?
And all these things that never mattered to you
I poured my heart into
I am leaving here this time cause nothing will suffice
An ending to this sacrifice of mine
I’m leaving here this time consistent all your lies
A new beginning without you in mind
You stole away the kindness that I had to give
And never could relate to how I want to live
It’s only how you did
And all these things that never mattered to you
I poured my heart into
So you think you can make it on your own?
Did you think I would stand here all alone
You’re wrong
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Smoke fills the air too thick to breath
Can’t decipher in which way to reach
No light to guide trapped in this place
Hands are shaking with nothing to drink
No one to take hold to pull me from this
This addiction that I can’t resist
My drowning desire is my only friend
That stays with me until the end
Forever bound I can’t escape away
These demons forcing me insane
quietly scream for someone who cares
Realizing that no one is there
Disguising the truth fatigue sinking in
Constant battles fought over again
The self loathing thoughts will trigger the fix
Overcome by this darkened abyss
My drowning desire is my only friend
That stays with me until the end
Darkness all around me
overwhelmed by
This addiction that clouds my mind
All that I have left is
this one bottle to extinguish
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Saying goodbye never seemed so tough
Formulate ways to not be wrong
Wearing this burden on my own
Sanity might be lost in the fight
Somehow the screams seem louder tonight
Don’t know if things will be alright
Sent away to protect
Freedoms in jeopardy
With all of the loved ones watching silently
Sent away to protect
Violence is gripping me
With all of the loved ones watching silently
I’m writing this letter to let you know
I feel like I might be letting go
Wish I was with you back at home
Send my regards to everyone
I’ll miss them with all my hearts
And it’s tearing me apart
Sanity might be lost in the fight
Somehow the screams seem louder tonight
Don’t know if things will be alright
Nobody wants to be alone Nobody wants to fight alone
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