Альбом Signs Of Betrayal

Staring into your eyes
I can see the painful despise that you feel
I guess I could not make it right
You finally saw the side
The part of me that I’ve tried to hide all along
Guess I could not be that strong
Falling apart so suddenly
Pressures from you and from me
Did I push you
Too far this time to return
Before you turn your back on me
Just let me say this one last thing
This one last thing

It’s in its final moment
Let’s take a step forward to see where this is going to lead
We both may have regrets here
But if you’re willing we could leave behind the painful tears

Wish I could take us back
To the times we were lost inside each other’s minds
But now we’re both left to decide
Please let me help to heal
Lead us to a new beginning to reveal
Another side that’s not so evil

Before you turn your back on me
Just let me say this one last thing

Lost inside a world as I was searching for a meaning
That would help me along
Never could relate to much anything I did
To try and make me belong
I won’t fall through
Not afraid to
Take the step beyond

Let go of pieces
To keep me sane
I have found reasons
To live this way

Realize the path as I would grow into a man
And take a shape that is true
Gave away the other things that never were apart of me
And try something new
I won’t fall through
Not afraid to
Nothing more to lose

lost in a world
Searching for meaning
Could not relate to anything
I won’t fall through
Not afraid to
Take the step beyond

It’s easy for others to judge one
When the feeble mind is composed of
Jealousy and resent
Talk to me like you know me
And tell me things that I should be
As if I don’t know what’s best
So take your persuasion elsewhere
And stand in my shoes if you dare
I’ll gladly put you to the test

Know that I will continue to push on and I
Will not finish til I prove you wrong because I
Know that accomplishing my dreams will help you to see things
That you never could be

Never asked for any acceptance
Or had a need for any opinions
Must be your arrogance
I’m in touch with my own agenda
So who are you now to question
The will to succeed in my passions
No courage in what you stand
All I’m looking to is obtain more
For people like you to imagine

Amongst all of the doubt I will fear nothing through this
Distastefully try to seduce my own bliss
I won’t compromise so take your design
I’ll face these days going against the grain

Let all the red roses bloom
To signify that you’re around
I know I could not say goodbye
So I’ll still keep you close inside

It’s kind of like
A part of me
Bruised that day you had to leave

I know you’re some place better now
Instead of suffering so proud
I will remember times we spent
And things I’ve learned from what you said

You are gone and I can’t bring you back
But all I want is one more day with you
I want to let you know how much you meant
Even though it’s way too late for that

And what a difference you had made
And people’s lives you changes so many ways
You were always stronger than I was
This battle was a fight that you could not have won

I’ll move on just knowing
I’ll see you when my time comes
And I’ll pray that you’re watching
And giving me the strength now that you’re gone
Now that you’re gone
I’ll carry you with me
The beautiful memories

Handful of rage carefully placed onto the innocent
Conquering more try to ignore the shame in doing it
Bury the blame carry the pain avoiding punishment
Exposing the truth never will do because of the intent
Because of the intentions
A wicked design to better the times won’t help to understand
Try to disguise the hurting inside neglecting self and man
Responsible for blood on the floor caused by selfish hands
Awaiting the day of washing away the guilty bandages that have been made
I’ve made up my mind to leave this all behind
The darkest part of me I can’t keep locked inside
And find a way to mend the broken piece of my life
That I hide

Excuse and surrender all that is tender
Reforming existence and making a difference
Understanding meaning and what comes with these things
Imagine potential within the reflection

Look to find what is right or wrong
Tried so hard now just letting go
I can only reach so far
Until it all falls apart
Save me now I’m sinking deep
Me my own worst enemy
And all of thoughts inside keep burning and burning
And as I stand on the edge
Falling heal over head
No turning back now
No turning back now

Once I’m gone there is no coming back
Would it matter anyway
It just still feels the same
Once I’m gone there is no coming back
Defenseless now with my guard down
Won’t you take me away

Scared to stay but yet I’m scared to go
Fight just to fight no reason why I’m
Putting myself through this
Had it all let it slip away
Giving up on destiny
If only I kept on pursuing that life long dream
Stand on the edge my reality
Fading away to this safe place
Released emotions that have turned to peace

Hoping to see these imprints of me
That I leave behind but please don’t cry
I guess selfishness has consumed my life
To give it up with no regret in mind
Once I’m gone there is no coming back
Would it matter anyway…anyway

Thought I had moved on
And then I found you there
Promises of changing tides
As I bought into your plan
For a little while I guess I cared
And only time will heal the pain
With this bleeding soul I know
You’ll just come back again

Walk away but don’t think you can come crawl back to me
Took for granted everything and you’re to blind to see
I loved you once at least I thought and now that’s gone
Just another memory in the book of deceit

The fear of losing you
Was raining in my head
Once again it’s up to me
Pulling through until the end
The insincere words that you say
Still linger in the air
What makes me feel this way
You’re just another face to spare

It’s beyond me what I thought I had with you
And I gave you all that I had in return untruth
Did you ever want to love me?

Parting ways is never easy
What has come to be
Is the end of you and me?

I can see the change that’s in your face
The same thing that brought you this hate
Did you think that this would help you
Mimicking the clowns that brought you these wounds
Remember what made you who you are
Don’t resort to changing just because it seems so much easier

Pick up your piece of the puzzle before
You’re out of time
These things you swore you would never turn to
So unlike you, it’s unlike you
To be so ugly and untrue
I hope you realize before you lose

Trying to relate, just be yourself
Eventually it will be okay
I know you can’t look into the mirror and
See a happy face when you can act this way
Remember what made you who you are
Don’t resort to changing just because it seems so much easier

Punishing yourself isn’t right
Why should you have to live your life like someone else
Because they made you feel so unlike them

Your loss if you keep running away from your beliefs

Paint a picture of black clouds over my head
With no light shining through them
And a backdrop colored dark red
Every road leads me to
Barricades so I can’t see
The meaning of these dreadful times
I wear this mask to hide my cries

Painful thoughts I try to explain them
But the words come out silent
I guess I’m all alone
I try to dream but they all come out nightmares
The same one where I stand there
The gun pointing at my head
Why do I deserve this ache
I’ve try so hard to take away
The ugliness that’s built inside
The whirlwind within my mind
Burden makes me suffocate
To the point that I might break
All I want is a simple life
Do what I can to make it by

Boundaries growing thin
Between what’s real and fake
Reality a nightmare
Awake to find myself
Looking over me
Come to find out this was not a dream

Can I be changed or am I locked inside here
Sever the noose to relieve all this pressure
Please send an angel down for her to save me
Killing these demons trapped inside this dark sleep
Heart beating fast
Cannot relax
Looking into the barrel that I can’t hold back
I’ve got to find a way to solve this problem
Find a way to stop this violence
Towards myself I’ve caused this grievance

Sadness builds while happiness just passes by
Violently I still try to relieve myself from the depression why
So much to live for
Sooner or later these feelings they will subside inside

Agonizing over who I am
In solitude is where I feel I stand
Take another drink to block the pain
Swearing at myself for my mistakes
Will I make it through more years and rise above my fears
Or will I fall away

I’ve tasted the love and the hate
For this I try to find the right or wrong reasons to die
Things are difficult now so I contemplate
And try to find the right or wrong reasons to die

Several reasons I cannot let go
For the people that still hold me close
Life is never really all that bad
Keep telling myself as I’m looking back

Contemplate my own fate
Stuck in this hole
And now the walls start to close
I close my eyes
And scream for my life
Why?