Альбом Orphanage

You're hiding behind the face of your victims
An imitation of the ones you killed
Afraid...
To see yourself in the mirror (the mirror lies!)
Afraid...
To be yourself in real life
Bastard! Coward!

I've blackened my inner self of innocence
And it's tearing my soul apart
I'm abused
Misused
Confused
And I died (mentally!)
Am I what you call insane?
My mind decayed with hate, I lost my common sense
Thus cannot tell right from wrong
Revenge!
To avenge with a relentless killing spree!
I cannot be saved no more...
This childhood of mine betrayed
My sanity fades away while sowing my seeds of hate
Now tell me who's to blame!
I'm afraid to be
And afraid to see, to live my life as myself, so a
Chameleon of life I'll be!
I'll escape and be someone else!
Memories from the past keep haunting me
All visions of guilt and shame that will make me cry
Even make me kill!...
And hide my face from you!

Afraid...
To see yourself in the mirror
It lies...
It defies...
To unleash your demise

You can't control year after year
Embrace oblivion with fear and weep and bleed and fall down
Paradise?
Perfect creation of mankind
Welcome to paradise!
Welcome to addiction, depression, corrosion, affliction
correction, repression, relapsing, collapsing
Into the abyss of progression
Together we create despair and guilt and anger
Justify?
We should justify our crimes
Ignore the shore of sympathy
I die

The weight of the world keeps you in fear
You confine yourself in agony
And condemn yourself to misery
More and more you turn into yourself
No one can prevent this tragedy:
Confined in yourself
Confined in pain
Confined in agony and shame
Condemned to misery
Prevent this tragedy!!!

Welcome to the perfect creations of the human race
Injustice, ignorance, prejudice, oppression, to name but a few
As an individual we just have to justify all crimes
And ignore our own conscience to fit perfectly in this society

The mourning after...
To oblivion we fade the morning after we fail to wake
My child...
To oblivion we fade the morning after we sail away
And the crowd weeps...

A magician with powers so strange resurrected from the past
He changed dust into flesh so not to rest eternally

See:
What is dust?
Death?
Or youth for life?
[Joseph Curwen]

Onwards your spell drew it
Eyes will seek for you, trust a secret
faith in the unknown ancient melancholic times
Where the mist was, the old, the weak, are silenced
Like the folks that ran away after years

Never play with the raising of the dead
Powerful minds will overtake yours
Do not call up that which you can't put down
Memorize the words of the descending node

I'm climbing down now, it's dark in here
I hear the moaning now
I'm going back again to the cellar stairs
I hear the moans again
This time I hide my fear
I climb down deep and find the answers here

Embrace the darkness!

[based on the story by H. P. Lovecraft]

Imagine a land of milk and honey
You've been there in your dreams but it exists
There is no shame, only love and joy
And lust will be satisfied in ecstasy
Flowers fill the hills of equality
The fragrance of roses caresses the air
Visions of Eden delights your inner child
So take my hand, I'll take you there

In delight we could dwell forever more
To cherish the sea of magic dreams
To eat the fruits of joyous temptation
And bite into the shining apple green
This Garden of Eden where mist engulfs the mind
Where gods dwell to ease their sorrowed souls
Paradise in my hand unifies all delight
Together for eternity on borrowed time, take me
Let your soul float into the mystic
scarlet regions awaiting in your dreams
Embrace the flowers of fulfillment
which the prophecy foretells
Listen to the oracle of light
and chant the verses of the cold sun

Into the void of a blackness you despise
I throw your sanity in the pit of your demise
Your mind is losing all grip on reality
My game has begun now, you will suffer just like me
Your vision has been blinded by the guilt in your own soul
Your hearing is mistreated by your own screams while I laugh
Feelings have been blunted by what you have done to me
Time for my revenge has come, the last day you will be
Oblivion will attach to you when you lose the grip on yourself

Without anything to look forward to because you're blind as of
now
But I can see you clearly, can hear you screaming inside your
skull
And it pleases me, it feeds me, my goal is in sight!
My name's Mr. Conscience and I have destroyed your life
You think I'm a poltergeist but I'm only in your mind
You've become a vegetable drooling in your bed
I think you have paid the price so I'll let you die instead
Why does this journey end in the unknown?
That's when you realize you had to die like me!

Through the wasted years and all bitter times
The druid came to heal all our crimes
As long as we're surviving he shall conquer us all
In the book of ancient magic and light
The ancients will obtain the knowledge of their might
To heal the tortured souls, their ultimate goal
Angels of mercy in disguise
Save tortured souls
Freedom is their goal
Onwards they dwell
Druid, a winning streak
Ancients, doom is in your hands
If you want to see the day
The reward is to travel through the skies in times to come
Then it will be you who lives

In the beginning I read the signs of decay
I was not to know what would come over me today
At the arrival of the train my body arrived
It could have been me and my mind was revived
The key of solutions is right in my hand
I've seen the tomb in which that urn stands
My coming days are ruled by death
Maria, why these veils of blood?
Or am I of that little faith?
As I struggled through the corridors of my overactive
imagination, or paranoia as some might say,
the ultimate truth overwhelmed me:
Like a fly in a web she had trapped me
I am doomed...doomed...

Unknown paths of the mind, glooming spheres of consciousness
reveal the second face of your life
When you please the soul, you'll be unfolded
but serenity is lost
as you fall into confusion of your mind
Dusk you'll see!
Sail the sea of dreams

Vision immortality, escape the destiny of your real life
Would you like to be drowned in sleep forever?
Join me and stay then darkness will remain
and drain your consciousness
Then you'll see the world from beyond
--coward solution, easy way out
Real life ignored
--fantasy taking over now
Mirror the past
--get a life or wake up dead
What do you fear?
--is it your mind or life you dread?
I think it's you!
The sea of dreams, its currents take you from the shores of existence
Fail and dream
Fail!

Hunting for living anomalies to gather
your life's work: a collection of beings of all ages
Your destiny is to create the ultimate zoo of life
Your only companions are your specimens
Travelling through the spheres of unknown dimensions
Druid of the future, please take me with you
Exercise the right to choose what you collect and classify
Collector, take me with you

Endless waves roll by, lost in the tide of time
Freezing emotions hold my mind
Chained by the shadows inside
Try to remember, can't forget
(all my life just seems in vain)
Even the sun has left
Taking me down in an abyss
(only have myself to blame)
Having no regret

Candles burning shining bright
Helping me through the night
Soon another morning comes to clear me up inside
And I try...
All my troubles, all my tensions
Make a new start, make it happen now
Darkness fades as clouds roll by
The sunlight bursts the sky
Cleans my body, frees my soul
(only had myself to blame)
Leaving it all behind

Afraid of the world I weep in my fear
I mourn for unbelievers
Damned for life they'll be
A journey of my major decline
Minor of joy tears to dry
Being fearless is life's fantasy
So I'll be a victim of fear