Альбом Oleander

Even if you turn away
Sweep it all aside
Under the rug
Nothing ventured nothing gained
But your problems still remain

If you're living in denial
Afraid to face yourself
Wasted all the time
When I look into your eyes
I see something inside of you that was once inside of me
And I've been there before
I nearly lost my wife my friends and more

You'll find out sooner or later
You find out sooner or later?
You find out sooner or later
You find out sooner or later?

If your life's become a mess
And put you to the test
Just like all the rest
When I look into your eyes
I see something inside of you

You'll find out sooner or later
You find out sooner or later?
You find out sooner or later
You find out sooner or later

So sad to hear that you don't want to hang around with me
So lame to see you leave and to know that you believe that it's over

Cause when your weak I feel the need to get underneath your skin
And when you start to tweak I find a way to get up beside you

Stupid, stupid, stupid
Stupid, stupid, stupid

In time you'll learn to love me as much as you love yourself
Oh in time you'll learn to hate me

Cause when I feel the need to have you back by my side
I am sweet it makes me sick to know that I can be so blind

Stupid, stupid, stupid
Stupid, stupid, stupid
Stupid, stupid, stupid
Stupid, stupid, stupid

Who is to blame for the way that you are, the things that you say and
All the things that you do.
Who is to blame for the way that you feel, the way that your living and
The way that you deal.

Who is right when everyone is wrong was it fate that brought you here
Against all your wishes
Who is to blame for the way that you are was it parental supervision or
The lack thereof

I get down when I'm loaded
Down when I'm loaded
Oh I get down

Who is to blame for the reasons you feel like it's an all or nothing
Kind of situation
Who is right when everyone is wrong was it fate that brought you here
Against all your wishes

It's the sound of super sad
It's the kind of shit that makes me angry
Your bad, oh wasting your time, your irresponsibility

Yeah, so educated, sooooo

I get down when I'm loaded
Down when I'm loaded
Oh I get down
I get down when I'm loaded
Down when I'm loaded
Oh I get down

It's the reason for my pain
In a season to celebrate
I don't wanna be full of hate
For anybody, but it's too late

Everyone has been in my face
Telling me that I'm a disgrace
Showing me things that I must face
Telling me that they need their space

I cant' love you anymore
I'm scared of the sound of it

It's the reason why I'm down
I'm beaten been pushed around
Hit the ceiling without a sound
Everyone I know considers me a clown

I can't love you anymore
I'm scared of the sound of it
I can't love you anymore
Woman, I just wanted more

I can't love you anymore
Scared of the sound of it
And woman, I just wanted more

It's the reason why I'm here

I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
Of what anybody thinks
Of what anybody says
About the way
About the way I am
So I'll wait until the day
When those feelings fade away
Then I'll make my break

I can't take this anymore
And I'm almost pretty sure
I've been here before
I can't take this any longer
I won't heal until I'm stronger
Strong enough to not be afraid
So I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out our dreams
Living out

Everbody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone, yeah I walk alone, yeah
Living blissfully

I guess you had to step away
To make me want to be
A bigger man, a bigger man than that
I need you by my side
As I take it all in stride
I put away, I put away my pride
Oh I leave it up to you
Yeah I leave it in your hands
Respect your wishes and your demands
But if it was up to me
Honey we'd already be back at home
And living out?

Everbody and everything I've known
Never taught me how to stand up on my own
Had to learn it from the one who let me go
Now I walk alone
Yeah I walk alone, yeah
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk, oh yeah

Even if we say we do, it don't mean that we will
It don't mean that we're going to
Even if we say we'll try it don't mean
That we'll have the opportunity

All this time weighed out unrefined
Twisted and unkind. all mine
All this pain suddenly arranged
A relationship that I've denied

My backs against the wall
I stumble and fall down
Sometimes I scream
I'm scratchin' at my head
I'd rather be dead than not in your arms
In your arms, in your arms

Even if we say we do it don't mean that we will
It don't mean that we're going to
Even if we say we'll try it don't mean
That we'll have the opportunity

My backs against the wall
I stumble and fall down
Sometimes I scream
I'm scratchin' at my head
I'd rather be dead than not
In your arms, in your arms, in your arms
My backs against the wall
I stumble and fall down
And sometimes I scream

My backs against the wall
I stumble and fall down
Sometimes I scream
I'm scratchin' at my head
I'd rather be dead than not
In your arms, in your arms, in your arms
My backs against the wall
I stumble and fall down
And sometimes I scream

Sooner or later you and me will be lost dumb blind and free
Sooner or later you and I won't have anywhere to hide
Sooner or later everyone catches up to the things they've done
Sooner or later everyone will get down as we kick it

Unwind, cut the ties, open wide and wait

Sooner or later things you say catch up and they make you pay
Sooner or later things you do they hurt only me and
Sooner or later everyone catches up to the things they've done
Sooner or later everyone will get down as we kick it

Unwind, cut the ties, open wide and wait

Oh, where were you then
Oh, where were you then
Honey, sorry hey hey la la
Oh, where were you then

Sooner or later things you say catch up and they make you pay
Sooner or later things you do they hurt only me and

Oh, where were you then
Oh, where were you then
Honey, sorry hey hey la la
Oh, where were you then

The deeper you get the more you sink into it
Faster you fall the more you crawl away from it
We're siamese at the knees she said and we're weighted
We're siamese if you please and she said and we're weighted

We are right here with you
We are right here with you

The more that you make the less you should take from others
The longer you live the more you should give to your brothers
We're siamese at the knees she said and we're weighted
We're siamese if you please and she said and we're weighted

We are right here with you
We are right here with you
You came the wait is over
And now your mine
And you'll never ever be alone

Can't believe how much you've grown in such a short time
Can't believe how much you've grown and are growing
Ornery, but lovingly you scream when your hungry
Can't believe how much you've grown and are growing
Right in front of my eyes

We are right here with you
We are right here with you
You came the wait is over
And now your mine & your mine
And you'll never ever be alone

Memories and silence fills each room
Overwhelming heavy as the tidal waves consume
Buried underneath the dust & gloom
Relics are reminders of my family of two

Pictures of a happy bride and groom
Ferry rides around the harbor on our honeymoon
Wedding gifts of pots and pans
Sleeping while were holding hands
As gracie lays upon us as we spoon

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

So now we live in fear of the unknown
Insecure and skepticle her trust in me was blown
Despite the past we face we both have grown
Through the pain to find the strength together or alone

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

I would say I'm sorry if I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time I have said too much been too unkind

I would break down your feet and beg forgiveness plead with you
But I know that it's no use cuz now there's nothing I can do

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes

Cuz boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would tell you that I love you if I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's too late cuz you've already gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
I took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more, more, more, more

I would do most anything to get you back by my side
But I'll just keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes

Cuz boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

Some of us never see the light
Until it's out of sight
Give up without a fight
Some of use fall and never get up
Swear that it's not their fault
Swear that it's not their fault

Evolution will turn your life around
From feeling safe and sound
To the lost and found
You and me, well, we are the same
I feel your loss, your joy, your pain
Shouldering the blame

Cuz, I've been there
Never again, never again
Will I allow myself to drown

Some of us never take advice
So then we pay the price
With every toss of the dice
Some of us never see the light
Until it's out of sight
Give up without a fight

Evolution will turn your life around
From feeling safe and sound
To the lost and found
You and me, well, we are the same
I feel your loss, your joy, your pain
Shouldering the blame

Cuz, I've been there
Never again, never again
Will I allow myself to drown
Cuz, I've wasted too much time
Too many years of my life letting others down

Cuz, I've been there
Never again, never again
Will I allow myself to drown
I've wasted too much time
Too many years of my life letting others down
Cuz, I've been there
Never again, never again
Will I allow myself to drown

Some of us never see the light
Until it's out of sight
Give up with out a fight