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This is the dying you are the disease
And I smile like Ritalin - the razor and me
This is the falling you are the underground
This is the deep end you are the drowning
One more hit and you'll get better
Tin foil, cigarettes - you'll be okay
This is not an after school special;
This is primetime, reload, and heroin
This is the final you are the failing
This is the retro you are the out of style
This is the grinding you are the decay
This is the funeral you are the casket
Chorus
This is the once was you are the has been
You keep saying - I'm in over my head
Chorus
One more hit and you'll get better, tinfoil, cigarettes, its not okay
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All the concrete words around here
I'm the bad seed I think I swallowed it whole
You're the compromise that never falls through
Never left behind wanna break down
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy it always leads me
And all the broken hearts that hang around here
All the sick things that make you pull out your hair
All the bad dreams, yeah all the nightmares
All the apathy is always sticking it in
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy it always leads me
It always finds a way to bring me
Down...
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy it always leads me
It always finds a way to bring me down
That's when I decided to break it...
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(ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)
you never really wanted it
you'll settle for a bit of it
we started with a big bit
covered over everything
and now it's coming back again
hey, don't you feel it now
my shiny side down (hey)
burning brighter still
and you're getting sick, and you're feeling it
and wind it down and wind it down
and she said "breathe it in and out and in and out,
i'll push you up against the wall, against the wall,
you didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong
about it"
(push.) it started with a hand gun
loaded with excuses
we started faking it (and then we started breaking it)
other pieces used to fit
use it like its going out of style (maybe just a little while)
this'll be the last time (everytime's the last time)
hey, don't you feel it now
my shiny side down (hey)
burning brighter still
and you're getting stuck, and you're suckin'up in..
and wind it down and wind it down
and she said "breathe it in and out and in and out,
i'll push you up against the wall, against the wall,
you didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong
about it"
(do do do do do do) (push.)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
i regretted it, i regret a lot of things (ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)
yeah i regretted it, i regret a lot of things
and you're feeling it
and wind it down and wind it down
and she said "breathe it in and out and in and out,
i'll push you up against the wall, against the wall,
you didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong
about it"
i regret a lot of things.
(i'll push you up against the wall, against the wall
you didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong)
and wind it down and wind it down
and she said "breathe it in and out and in and out,
i'll push you up against the wall, against the wall,
you didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong
about it"
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
(do do do do do do)
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And I wondered why you came for all this after so long
When it ripped into you like the son you never were
And I don't think this is what you wanted now
It feels alright but that's a lie that's always near
Sit around and blame the one that put you here
I laughed aloud to drown it out
So I could breathe and feel the space around me
(I'm not kidding anymore)
And I wondered why you never doubted getting there
(so far from here)
When it pulls you down and throws you over, waiting there
Why do you always end up right back here
It feels alright but that's a lie that's always near
Sit around and blame the one that put you here
I laughed aloud to drown it out
So I could breathe and feel the space around me
(I'm not kidding anymore)
You always end up here
You always end up here
You always end up
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Backwards leaving, Barely beating
Stupid reasons, useless feelings
I wasn't that surprised(its always part of my)
Awkward attempts to stay gone
I remain unknown
Chorus:
Im bleeding where i bled
Im hiding where i hid
Im entertained in sicker things
And everybody said
Im burning out instead
The softer side of unbearable
Feel castrated, Complicated
Mind mistreated
I wasn't that prepared(i wasn't that aware)
Just wanted to disappear
I remain unknown
Chorus
Come Around, coming down
Giving a frown, to the sound
When I hit ground
I the way that I say
When I know that I don't give a fcuk
About it anyway
Stay awake, Feeling cold and tired
Resignation - life's forsaken
I should have thought ahead
And I remain unknown
Chorus
I'm sicker than I thought
I'm fighting what I fought
I'm right back where I started from
Backwards leaving, Barely beating
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This one's of you taking your pill
Sometimes forget and that's okay I guess
This one's of me at my sisters wedding day
All the spaces
They all were wasted
You're barely breathing I know
What if it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change but it hurts the same
This one's of me throwing up for you
And I'm paler still, but that's the way you wanted it
This one's of you
Certain of cancer
In all the spaces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
What now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurst the same
A fever broke somewhere behind July
And remember how I weighed 135
And we collide...
All the spaces
It all got wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurst the same
This one's of me losing my weight
I'm feeling afraid
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