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All I want in life is to be happy (happy)
It seems funny to me
How fucked things can be
Everytime I get ahead
I feel more dead
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Hey, I'm feeling tired
My time, is gone today
You flirt with suicide
Sometimes, that's ok
Hear what others say
I'm here, standing hollow
Falling away from me
Falling away from me
Day, is here fading
That's when, I would say
I flirt with suicide
Sometimes kill the pain
I can always say
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'
Falling away from me
Falling away from me
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
It's lost and can't be found
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
So down
Beating me down < BR>Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Pressing me, they won't go away
So I pray, go away
It's falling away from me
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
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How did it start?
Well I don't know
I just feel the craving
I see flesh and it smells fresh
and it's just there for the taking
These little girls,
they make me feel so goddam exhilerated
I fill them up, I can't give it up
To me, I'm just erasing
I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
So I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?
Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away
I don't know why I'm so fucking cold
I don't know why its hurts me
All I wanna is get with you
and make the pain go away
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me
Why do I have this torment?
All I wanna do is fuck it away
I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
So I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?
Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away
I tell my lies, and I despise
every second I'm with you
So I run away
and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?
Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away
Just throw you away
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This sh*t right here is for you
All your faces I can see
You all think it's up, not me
I'm about to break, this is my fate
Am I still d**ned to a life,
of misery and hate?
You will never know
What it did for me
What you are
Got me through
I've done for you
I could have, never lived
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Everyone is looking at me
I can't get out of bed
There is evil in my head
Everyone just let me be
Because when I hit the stage
It is gone and I am free
Goddam you say you'll get up for me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me
Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me
Tell me, how could this fade?
I am going in shame
And I could not have my pain
Everyone please let me be
'Cause we're on stage
And it's gone and I am free
Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me
Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me
I feel the shame
I'm not insane
The things I feel now
Arent the same
Who gives a fuck,
if my life sucks?
I just know one day
I won't give up
Everyone just let me be
Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
ou won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me
Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me
Be there, for me
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I am watching your eyes
And follow my salvation
There's so much much shit around me
Such a lack of compassion
I thought it would be fun and games
(it would be fun and games)
Instead it's all the same
(it's all the same)
I want something to do
Need to feel nothingness
In You
I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh may be bad
All I do is look for you
And when I fix you
Needed to, just to get some sort of attention
Attention
What does it mean to you
For me, it's somthing I just do
I want something
I need to feel the sickness in you
I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh may be bad
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Fu.., fu.. fu.., I got this bad cold
And I got a life, I live it up
I live it up
(It's gonna go away)
I don't want this to go away
(go away)
I'm so scared
(oh so scared)
I can't think of going on
We all crumble
We crumble under pressure
(pressure)
Pressure
(pressure)
(It's gonna go away)
.... go live it up
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Wake the fuck up!
Each day, more frightening
All of us wanna die
The pressure's tightening
I don't even want to try
Should I take all the stupid bullshit
What makes them think they can get away with it?
Im not happy
I wish they just...
Wake the fuck up!
I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All the heads are blown
Let's just take the stage
And remember why we play for
No more fighting!
I swear I'm gonna leave
Talking shit to spite me
I wish they just..
Wake the fuck up!
I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All the heads are blown
Let's just take the stage
And remember why we play for
Remember why we play for
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Am I going crazy?
Come on, and say in taste
Am I too lost, to face it?
And what will it cost
To escape
Nothing is right
I'm so scared
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Let me see (let me see)
All my life (taken) taken
This demon (haunts me) haunts me
They are hating me
Help me
You fuck me
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
Hating me
They are taking me
Away
By ...
Facing me (what soul)
My soul
There ...
Please help me
You fuck me
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them
They say this thing inside me
Wants to get out
All it does is scream and shout
I'm trying not to let them out
They tell me to hurt myself
But I'm not gonna listen
You fuck me
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them
Hey daddy
(waiting)
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I can't stand to let you win
I'm just watching you
And I don't know what to do
Feeling like a fool inside
Feeling all that you hide
Thought you my friend
Seems it never ends
I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me
Giving you with this and that
Giving gave nothing back
It's all related to
All the things I do
Feeling like a fool inside
Seeing all the things you tried
I am nothing
I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me
I look, I sign
I need someone
Inside to help me out
With what
I`m trying
I'm crying
I'm praying
In a pile of
Shit
I'm dying
I'm dying
I need somebody, somebody, somebody, someone
I need somebody, somebody, somebody, som eone
Someone
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Lately things won't go my way
Lately everything is grey
It feels like something
It feels like nothing
So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way
So I'm angry for today
Anger's the only thing I've made
It feels like something
No it's nothing
So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way
To live this way
Hating, feeling, falling
To the place where people haunt me
I can't help but give up
Falling to the place where people know me
I can't wait
To give them these feelings of hating
Keeping in side me
For all to take
Picking at me
They're ripping at me
Ripping at me
So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way
To live this way
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When it's crying
Take me on second place
Which you don't often find
I see a family walking
Always thinking of
Being somewhere else in time
So I fall face down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had
Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle
Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign
Time is ticking
It makes me feel content
With what I have inside
Constant paranoia
Surrounds me
Everyone I see
Is out to get me
So I fall down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had
Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle
Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign
You make me feel insane
Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle
Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
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I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am
And how shit got the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You are taking my life and selling it, tehehe
Why should I complain?
At least it helps my pain
I am very cool now
And its... about my vein
I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am
And how shit got the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You fuckin pussy
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I came back
To face what's growing in my head
Please get away from me
Take advantage of what I feel
Yes you do
One day you'll beg for me
So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting
You just see me as something
As something you throw around
You were there for me
Beating down to the ground
Yes it always seems
You take more from me
So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting
It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun and the games
It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun
That's my game
So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting
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Keep knocking
Noones there
Pouring down
Near people
My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off
I hurt so bad inside
At least you can see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again
Keep hoping
Nothing to spare
So my life
Isn't quite there
Feel like a whore
A dirty whore
Such a whore
Dirty
My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my head off
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through in my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again
I'll die again
I'll die again
I'll wilt again
Into you
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
I will take it
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna live again
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