Альбом Jars Of Clay

rain, rain on my face
it hasn't stopped raining for days
my world is a flood
slowly I become one with the mud

CHORUS:

but if I can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
lift me up so high that I cannot fall
lift me up
lift me up - when I'm falling
lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
lift me up - I need you to hold me
lift me up - keep me from drowning again

downpour on my soul
splashing in the ocean, I'm losing control
dark sky all around
I can't feel my feet touching the ground

[CHORUS]

calm the storms that drench my eyes
dry the streams still flowing
cast down all the waves of sin
and guilt that overthrow me

[CHORUS]

lift me up - when I'm falling
lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
lift me up - I need you to hold me
lift me up - keep me from drowning again

arms nailed down
are you telling me something
eyes turned out
are you looking for someone

this is the one thing
the one thing that I know

blood-stained brow
are you dying for nothing
flesh and blood
is it so elemental

this is the one thing
the one thing that I know

blood-stained brow
he wasn't broken for nothing
arms nailed down
he didn't die for nothing

this is the one thing
the one thing that I know

I am the only one to blame for this
somehow it all adds up the same
soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high
and like icarus I collide
with a world I try so hard to leave behind
to rid myself of all but love
to give and die

to turn away and not become
another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans
more abundant than the tears
of a world embracing every heartache

can I be the one to sacrifice
or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

to love you - take my world apart
to need you - I am on my knees
to love you - take my world apart
to need you - broken on my knees

all said and done I stand alone
amongst remains of a life I should not own
it takes all I am to believe
in the mercy that covers me

did you really have to die for me
all I am for all you are
because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
more and more I need you now
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
so steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

in open fields of wild flowers
she breathes the air and flies away
she thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
he's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
someday she'll trust him and learn how to see him
someday he'll call her and she will come running
and fall in his arms
and the tears will fall down and she'll pray

i want to fall in love with you (x 4)

sitting silent wearing sunday best
the sermon echoes through the walls
a great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere
and can't feel the chains on their souls

it seems too easy to call you "Savior"
not close enough to call you "God"
so as i sit and think of words i can mention
to show my devotion

i want to fall in love with you

he's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
someday we'll trust him and learn how to see him
someday he'll call us and we will come running
and fall in his arms
and the tears will fall down and we'll pray
i want to fall in love with you

my heart beats for you

fare thee well
trade in all our words for tea and sympathy
wonder why we tried, for things that could never be
play our hearts lament, like an unrehearsed symphony

not intend
to leave this castle full of empty rooms
our love the captive in the tower never rescued
and all the victory songs
seem to be playing out of tune

but it's not the way
that it has to be
don't trade our love for tea and sympathy
'cause it's not the way
that it has to be

you begin
and all your words fall to the floor and break like china cups
and the waitress grabs a broom and tries to sweep them up
i reach for my tea and slowly drink in

CHORUS:

'cause it's not the way
that it has to be
don't trade our love for tea and sympathy
'cause it's not the way
that it has to be
don't trade our love for tea and sympathy

so fare thee well
words the bag of leaves that fill my head
i could taste the bitterness and call the waitress instead
she holds the answer, smiles and asks one teaspoon or two

[CHORUS x 2]

don't trade us for tea and sympathy
don't trade us for tea and sympathy
we can work it out
don't trade us for tea and sympathy
don't trade us for tea and sympathy
we can work it out
don't trade us for tea and sympathy
we can work it out

it's not hard to know what you're thinking
when you look down on me now
your trance of love is seeking
to turn this world around
but in my state of blind confusion
no god can pull me out
i see your love is willing
to turn me inside out

and then I see you there
the lonely tears I cry
i wish they'd release me

it's in despair that I find faith
summon the night to bow down to day
when ignorance is bliss
save me from myself

CHORUS:

and then I see you there
with your arms open wide
and you try to embrace me
these lonely tears I cry
they keep me in chains
and I wish they'd release me
cold is the night but
colder still is the heart
made of stone, turned from clay
and if you follow me
you'll see all the black, all the white fade to grey

fade to grey
fade to grey

[CHORUS x 2]

you're cold that way
and that's why you say
the things that you say
you can't attract
the things that you lack
you're trying in vain

CHORUS:

it seems it's always the crazy times
you find you'll wake up and realize
it takes more than your saline eyes
to make things right

you spiral down
you've broken your crown
you don't feel like a queen
you've seen the proof
but you're still crying wolf
you'll never believe

[CHORUS]

you try to climb a broken ladder
grip the missing rungs
and fall down, down, down
seems sometime ago you said
this wouldn't last
and now you sit here crying

beside your bed
you feel left for dead
you kneel in the dark

it takes more than your saline eyes
to make things right

[CHORUS]

a promise or a dare
i would jump if i knew you'd catch me
staring over the edge
i can't tell if you'll be here for me

i close my eyes and make a wish
turn out the lights and take a breath
pray that when the wick is burned
you would say that it's all about love

CHORUS:

you were there when i needed you
you were there when the skies broke wide, wide open
you were there when i needed you
you were there when the skies broke wide, wide open

you were never here

i remember you said
love was more than your good intentions
empty boxes on the floor
things i never asked you for
i pray that when the wick is burned
you would say that it's all about love

[CHORUS]

i can't see the promise of
excuses you fall upon
i pray to God not holding on
to things you've left undone

[CHORUS x 2]

you were there when i
you were there when i
you were there when i needed you

a flower for your vanity
a penny for your thoughts
about the world's insanity
and how we've gotten lost
strike up the band to play a song
as we go waltzing by
and fake a smile as we all say goodbye

goodbye, oh, goodbye

say a prayer for recognition
kiss the ones you love
gather up the ammunition
sigh for all the lost
strike up the band to play a song
as we go waltzing by
and fake a smile as we all say goodbye

raise a glass for ignorance
drink a toast to fear
the beginning of the end has come
that's why we all are here
strike up the band to play a song
and try hard not to cry
and fake a smile as we all say goodbye
goodbye

God, I admit I haven't changed
playing card houses still covering my landscape
I never expected you to stay
when I'm grabbing for these crumbs and cold loose change

I feel your grace come running over every road
I love the way you're calling overflow
I feel your grace come running over every road
you break the floodgates down and carry all

God, I admit that I've loved these chains
and crawling around this cage sometimes has its advantages
I know someday this could get old
and I'll need your healing water to find my home

follow the crowd and love everybody now
'cause love is the best thing for you now
but you changed your mind
you let everybody down
but down is the best place for you
it's easier that way

you know it's so wrong
can't embrace it
wish sometimes for any other you
but you can't erase it
and you won't escape it

don't waste your time
your words only confine you
to all of the things you've buried now
don't ask them why
their wisdom will leave you blind
but blind is the best thing for you
it's easier I know

you know it's so wrong
can't embrace it
wish sometimes for any other you
but you can't erase it
and you won't escape it

how long will you face it
'til the wait comes crashing down on you
'cause you can't erase it
and you won't escape it

I never minded calling you a king
if that meant that I could count on you
to give me everything
I never thought to ask you
I always thought you knew
it was never my intention to question you

you never minded calling me a child
well, I guess that's how I acted all the while
but you live through every tantrum
you see through every lie
though they seem to be more common
I just wanted to know why oh why

unforgetful you, unforgetful
unforgetful you, so unforgetful

you never minded giving us the stars
then showing us how blind
and unaware of you we are
you painted me a picture
and showed me how to see
though I just won't behold it
unless it pertains to me

strangely out of place
there's a light filling this room where
none would follow before
I can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt away my pride
do I want shelter from the rain
or the rain to wash me away?

CHORUS:
I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you
you're all I'm livin' for

I might sound like a fool
but I think I felt you moving closer to me
face to the ground to hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight, I feel you lift me up
you are the shelter from the rain
and the rain to wash me away

[CHORUS]
I need you, I need you, I need you
you're all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
you're all I'm livin' for

face to the ground to hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight, I feel you lift me up
I can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt away my pride
I only had a second to spare
but all the time in the world to know you're there
you are the shelter from the rain
and the rain to wash me away

I need you, I need you, I need you
(all I'm livin' for)
I need you, I need you, I need you
(all I'm livin' for)
I need you, I need you, I need you
you're all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
you're all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
all I'm livin' for
(all I'm livin' for)
you're all I'm livin' for

be still
let your hand melt into mine
the part of me that breathes when you breathe is losing time
I can't find the words to say
I'll never say goodbye

CHORUS:
and I'll fly with you through the night
so you know I'm not letting go
I'm not letting go
my tears like rain fill up the sky
oh, my love, I'm not letting go
I won't let you go

I saw the host of silent angels waiting on their own
knowing that all the promises of faith
come alive when you see home
hold still and let your hand melt into mine

[CHORUS]

shed your heart and your breath and your pain and fly

now you're alive
now you're alive
now you're alive
now you're alive

I won't let you go
I'm not letting go
I won't let you go
I'm not letting go
I won't let you go

take, take 'til there's nothing
nothing to turn to
nothing when you get through
won't you break
scatter pieces of all I've been bowing to
all I've been running to
where are you?

where are you?

did you leave me unbreakable?
leave me frozen?
I've never felt so cold
I thought you were silent
I thought you left me
for the wreckage and the waste
on an empty beach of faith
was it true?

yes, I, I got a question
I got a question
where are you?

scream
deeper, I wanta scream
I want you to hear me
I want you to find me
I, I want to believe
but all I pray is wrong
and all I claim is gone

well, I, I got a question
I got a question
where are you?

yeah, yeah

well, I, I got a question
I got a question
where are you?

where are you?
where are you?
where are you?

peace takes a taxi to the underground
I want to love the world, but I don't know how
I blame it on the d.j. playin' all the fast songs
ain't spinnin' anything that I can sing along

so if you know the words, then try to sing along
and when you get the beat, grab a hammer, bang a gong
'cause you don't got to fight or make yourself belong
to be a revolution, yeah
to be a revolution, yeah

if you wanna learn to play the rock guitar
throw down your guns, you're gonna be a star
you got to begin with who you know you are
to be a revolution, yeah

'cause the time is right to cross that line
to let love find a way

so if you know the words, then try to sing along
and when you get the beat, grab a hammer, bang a gong
cause you don't got to fight or make yourself belong
to be a revolution, 's alright
to be a revolution, 's alright, yeah

yeah

alright

so if you know the words, then try to sing along
and when you get the beat, grab your hammer, bang a gong
'cause you don't got to fight or make yourself belong
to be a revolution, alright, yeah

if you know the words, then try to sing along
and when you get the beat, grab a hammer, bang a gong
'cause you don't got to fight or make yourself belong
to be a revolution, alright, yeah, yeah

if you know the words, then try to sing along
and when you get the beat, grab your hammer, bang a gong
'cause you don't got to fight or make yourself belong
and be a revolution, yeah, yeah, yeah
a revolution, yeah

be a revolution, yeah

Call it obsession
Call it fanatical
But I am not trying
To make this a spectical
I have this craving
Justifies behaving
I really need some of that

(Chorus)
Ooo, good coffee
Strong coffee
I need to have some
Ooo, good coffee
Strong coffee

Ooo cappuchino
Double espresso
I need something with
A really big kick
You ask me about creamer
You ask me about sugar
I tell you those things make me sick
With my...

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
Oooooo
Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Oooooo
Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Oooooo
Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Oooooo
Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha

(Chorus 2X)

Lost inside another arguement
But that's not what I meant
Equals complement
And what I said just wasn't right
So I brought it to your attention

(Chorus)
I'll be there when we finally make sense
When we give up our defense
Wouldn't want it anyway

These apologies are dentistry
If you're pulling teeth take a few from me
Cuz I can't kiss my pride goodnight
Watch the sun go down and still be right

(Chorus)
Wouldn't want it anyway
Wouldn't want it anyway

(Chorus)
Wouldn't want it anyway...

sunny days keepin' the clouds away
I think we're coming to a clearing and a brighter day
so far away and still I think they say
the wait will make the heart grow stronger
or fonder, I can't quite remember, anyway

Chorus:
so if you're waitin' for love
well, it's a promise i'll keep
if you don't mind believing that it changes everything
time will never matter

uh, uh, uhhh

winter, spring -- is what love can truly bring
ice turns to water; water flows to everything
you can lose your mind
maybe then your heart, you'll find
I hope you won't give up what's movin' you inside -- no

[CHORUS]

(time will never matter)

[CHORUS]

(time will never matter)

if the car won't start when you turn the key
when the music comes on, all your cold, cold heart can do
is skip a beat

it's a promise I'll keep when you're waitin' for love
if you don't mind believing that it changes everything
time will never matter (time will never matter)

[CHORUS]

(time will never matter)
no, time will never matter
(time will never matter)
no, time will never matter
no, oo, oo

Chasing the sound of lullabies that echo, that entwine
The funeral songs we're singing

Heal the pain of unheard warnings
Light will fill where dark is dawning
Show the world and bring us back to life

I know you've been a friend of sorrow
And if I never wake tomorrow
I still believe you carry me tonight
Tonight, tonight

Hallowed be the life that leads the rest of us from sleep
Out of the dream to waking

Right behind the quake and longing
I stand and watch cathedrals falling
I still believe you'll take us through the night

I know you've been a friend of sorrow
And if I never wake tomorrow
I still believe you carry me tonight
Tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight

I know you've been

I know you've been a friend of sorrow
And if I never wake tomorrow
I still believe you carry me tonight

I know you've been a friend of sorrow
And if I never wake tomorrow
I still believe you carry me tonight
Tonight (if I never wake tomorrow)
I still believe you carry me tonight, tonight
I still believe you carry me tonight

he put it in the bottle and he threw it out to sea
but the tide would not surrender and it floated to the beach
so the message of apology his love would never see
he walked around that island all shipwrecked, and heavy

the scars of early childhood stood showing on the skin
necessary enemy so healing could begin
from the message of apology his heart might soon break free
for now he walks that island all shipwrecked, and ready

low beyond horizon lines across the salty sea
a boat without a captain makes its way to some city
he prays that it would sail its course to lover or to kin
and fan a thirst for searching and finding him again

finding him again
finding him again

"The world breaks every one and
afterward many are strong at the broken places"
-- from "A Farewell to Arms" by Ernest Hemingway

the ice is thin enough for walkin'
the rope is worn enough to climb
throat is dry enough for talkin'
world is crumblin', but I know why
world is crumblin', but I know why

storm is wild enough for sailing
bridge is weak enough to cross
this body frail enough for fighting
I'm home enough to know I'm lost
home enough to know I'm lost

Chorus:
it's just enough to be strong
in the broken places, in the broken places
it's just enough to be strong
should the world rely on faith tonight

land unfit enough for planting
barren enough to conceive
poor enough to gain the treasure
enough a cynic to believe
enough a cynic to believe

[CHORUS]

confused enough to know direction
sun eclipsed enough to shine
be still enough to finally tremble
see enough to know i'm blind
see enough to know i'm blind

[CHORUS x 2]

should the world rely on faith tonight
should the world rely on faith tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight
tonight

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
I sought the company of fools instead of friends

Chorus:
you know I've been unfaithful
with lovers in lines
while you're turning over tables
with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
thought that love would never find
hanging ropes will never keep you
and your love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

tryin' to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
than be broken by a lover I don't understand
'cause I don't understand

[CHORUS]

love of a jealous kind, yeah
love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

one hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
if I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
and love that shames the wise
betrays the hearts deceit and lies
and breaks the back of foolish pride

[CHORUS]

love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

Written by Jars of Clay

For those under the clouds
Staring up in awesome wonder
As tears come slowly down
I'm reaching up a needful hand

CHORUS:
You are my eyes when I cannot see
You are my voice, see, sing through me
You are my strength in weakness be

To find that I could fall
And still your grace surrounds, pursuing
To freely stumble down
I feel your hands around my heart

[CHORUS]

You are my strength, my voice, my eyes
I lift up needful hands
You are my strength, my voice, my eyes
I lift up needful hands

[CHORUS]

I had a big idea
I had a crazy eye
I broke the sacred seal
I told a lazy lie
I've had my conscience bent
I've had my patience tried
I've been up in the desert and
down by the riverside

will the eagle fly
if the sky's untrue?
do the faithful sigh
because they are so few?
remember when I cried?
remember when you knew?
remember the look in your eyes?
I know I do

and count the stars to measure time
the earth is hard, the treasure fine
to the sea, I crawl on my knees

feel it coming in
feel it going out
water covers sand
blood covers doubt
so I begin again
again, the healing bow
there was a time when I might have surrendered
but not now

consult the cards to measure mine
the earth is hard, but the treasure fine
to the sea, I crawl on my knees
consult the cards to measure mine
the earth is hard, but the treasure fine
at the sea, I'll wait on my knees
at the sea, I'll wait on my knees
at the sea, I'll wait on my knees

traditional words by Paul Gerhardt
(trans. John Weswley, alt. by Jars of Clay)/
music by Jars of Clay

Give to the wind your fear
Hope and be undismayed
God hears your sighs and counts your tears
God will lift up, God will lift up, lift up your head

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
Lift up your head

Leave to His sovereign sway
To choose and to command
Then shall we wandering on His way
Know how wise and how strong
How wise and how strong

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
Lift up your head

Through waves and clouds and storms, He gently clears the way
Wait because in His time, so shall this night
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark

Just in case, I will leave my things packed
So I can run away

I cannot trust these voices I don't have a line of prospects that can give some
kind of peace
There is nothing left to cling to that can bring me sweet release
I have no fear of drowning
It's the breathing that's taking all this work

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Empty spaces with shadows hit by streetlights
Warnings signs and weight of tired conversations
In the absence of a shoulder, in the abscess of a thief
On the brink of this destruction, on the eve of bittersweet
Now all the demons look like prophets and I'm living out
Every word they speak, every word they speak

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"
Alone, alone, I don't want to be alone

I have no fear of drowning
It's the breathing that's taking all this work

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark

Oh my God, look around this place
Your fingers reach around the bone
You set the break and set the tone
Flights of grace, and future falls
In present pain
All fools say, "Oh my God"

Oh my God, Why are we so afraid?
We make it worse when we don't bleed
There is no cure for our disease
Turn a phrase, and rise again
Or fake your death and only tell your closest friend
Oh my God.

Oh my God, can I complain?
You take away my firm belief and graft my soul upon your grief
Weddings, boats and alibis
All drift away, and a mother cries

Liars and fools; sons and failures
Thieves will always say
Lost and found; ailing wanderers
Healers always say
Whores and angels; men with problems
Leavers always say
Broken hearted; separated
Orphans always say
War creators; racial haters
Preachers always say
Distant fathers; fallen warriors
Givers always say
Pilgrim saints; lonely widows
Users always say
Fearful mothers; watchful doubters
Saviors always say

Sometimes I cannot forgive
And these days, mercy cuts so deep If the world was how it should be, maybe I
could get some sleep
While I lay, I dream we're better,
Scales were gone and faces light
When we wake, we hate our brother
We still move to hurt each other
Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder

Sometimes when I lose my grip, I wonder what to make of heaven
All the times I thought to reach up
All the times I had to give
Babies underneath their beds
Hospitals that cannot treat all the wounds that money causes,
All the comforts of cathedrals
All the cries of thirsty children - this is our inheritance
All the rage of watching mothers - this is our greatest offense

Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark

January 1, I've got a lot of this on my mind
I'm looking at my body through a new spy satellite
Try to lift a finger, but I don't think I can make the call
So tell me if I move, 'cause I don't feel anything at all

So Carry Me,
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe,
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

I woke up from a dream about an empty funeral
But is was better than the party full of people I don't really know
They've got hearts to break and burn
Dirty hands to feel the earth
There's something in my veins,
But I can't seem to make it work… won't work

So Carry Me,
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe,
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Can you find a beat inside of me?
Any pulse?
Getting worse?
Any pulse?
Getting worse?
Inside of me, can you find a beat?

Carry Me,
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe,
I want to be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan (2x)

with Leigh Nash
Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Charlie Lowell, Stephen Mason, Matt Odmark

I'm feeling older than my years
I'm feeling pain inside my chest
It's love that keeps me silent
It's my silence that you detest
Rivers flow into the oceans
And oceans never fill
I want to kiss your lips, but I know I never will

Love's a hard decision to risk impending choke
But love will keep you wishing
And my heart will keep me broke

I blew flowers, gave you candy to even out the guilt
I sent you greeting cards with messages that I could never write
Rivers flow into the oceans
And oceans never fill
I want to let you know me
But I know I never will

Love's a contradiction
Many mirrors and smoke
Love will keep you wishing
My heart will keep me broke

You will always want me
And I'll always want to leave
Even though I cut your wounds
You still deny they're real
Rivers flow into the ocean
Oceans never fill
I want to lay my life down
But I know you never will

Love's a strange condition
With all the doubts it can invoke
You love keeps me wishing
And my heart keeps me broke

Baby, don't you cry, 'cause I got it all figured out
You always make me sad
But that's what true love is all about
Rivers never fill the oceans
But oceans always feel
The waters reaching deep inside them
I guess they always will

Love's a constant mission to a world you never spoke
Love, it keeps you wishing
My heart, it keeps me broke …

Mirrors and Smoke

Words by Dan Haseltine
Music by Dan Haseltine, Matt Odmark, Stephen Mason, Charlie Lowell

All heavy laden acquainted with sorrow
May Christ in our marrow carry us home
From alabaster come blessings of laughter
A fragrance of passion, joy from the truth

Grant the unbroken tears ever flowing
From hearts of contrition only for you
May sin never hold true that love never broke through
For God's mercy holds us; we are his own

This road that we travel
May it be the straight & narrow
God give us peace & grace from you
All the day
Shelter with fire
Our voices we raise still higher
God give us peace & grace from you
All the day through

I'm sure that I could never
make it through the night without you here
the fires in the sky
illuminate the demons closing in

have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last to go

as I crawl around these trails
and fight upon this widowing field
the ground below is bare and burned
at the places I have learned to trust You

have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last to go
I am not the last to go

when even silence sets my heart to racing
I will lift my eyes to you
please, Father, find me

have mercy on my soul...
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last
have mercy on my soul
if I am not the last to go

oh, mary, joseph, rest your eyes
try not to think of the ending
world full of empty, He will die
but tonight He is still just a child

the silent night drifts all away
and the angels are dancing around you
there's the joy of knowing He'll save the world
overshadowing the pain that He'll go through

CHORUS:
have you cursed at the wind
have you cried to the heavens
have you fought with this mercy you don't understand
when the wise men kneel down
to kiss the hand of this king they found
in bethlehem town

will you hold back the years a while
will you dream that this man could always be a child
and never carry all the weight
of the dirt and the distance and the company we keep

[CHORUS]

and did the stars shine much brighter that night
you gave birth to the death that would bring us to life
and did the mystery keep you awake
was the sound of His little heart too much to take

oh, i don't understand
when the wise men kneel down
to kiss the hand of this king they found


[CHORUS]

in bethlehem town
in bethlehem town

come, they told me (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
a newborn king to see (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
our finest gifts we bring (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
to lay before the king (pa-[rum-pa-pum-pum x 3])
so, to honor him (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
when we come

little baby (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
i am a poor boy, too (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
i have no gifts to bring (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
that's fit to give a king (pa-[rum-pa-pum-pum x 3])
shall i play for you (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
on my drum

mary nodded (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
the ox and lamb kept time (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
i played my drum for him (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
i played my best for him (pa-[rum-pa-pum-pum x 3])
then he smiled at me (pa-rum-pa-pum-pum)
me and my drum