Альбом Conception

little mirror on the wall forgive my sins as so many times before
your calm convinced the world I know is beyond your reach
your eyes too numb to see and even though you pretend to search
you never shed a tear
you'll see me shine and roll with the wind again
silence couldn't deal with your alibis
disclosure of heavens gate
I have seen getsemane in your eyes
you consumed my flesh and blood
you took my soul so easily
but it's hard to even crawl when chasing for reality
you came to me like a judas' kiss
yet I am bound to trust you and only
I could have quenched your thirst
refreshed your soul anew
you'll see me shine and roll with the wind again
silence couldn't deal with your alibis
disclosure of heavens gate
I have seen getsemane in your eyes
you will deny me again forever
as long as I'm bound to be here
softly caressing the pain
learning we all have a cross to bear
we all have a reason to die
a reason to leave all the worries and fly

it's only me my friend
your private lucifer
an angel heaven sent down to your deepest fears
walk with me
talk to me again
in your sleep
when you're weak astray
I feel you right inside me
(nothing can be right if there is no wrong)
all around me
(innocent replies from a twisted tongue)
I am the golden calf
providing hate and greed
I am the other half
maintaining harmony
silently violently
but pure in your sleep
when you're insecure
I feel you right inside me
(love cannot be real if you cannot hate)
all around me
(pain is only pleasure in a different shape)
I feel you right inside me
(how can there be heaven if there is no hell)
all around me
(nothing can remain if it's all too well)
I feel you right inside me
(beauty has no meaning if without the beast)
all around me
(there's no way to freedom till your mind's released)

you cast a carmine kiss
across the digits into my lonely life
I felt a certain bliss
I tried to save it to keep the rush alive
holy holy (but so unreal)
slowly slowly (my circuit heart corrodes)
I'd die to meet you in the flesh
somehow recover the pain
I want to touch and be caressed
to breathe and live again
I see you all around
cyberian venus destined to chastity
but I am also bound to trust my senses
redeem humanity
haunt me hate me (unchain your soul)
taunt me waste me (forsake, consolidate)
I'd die to meet you in the flesh
somehow recover the pain
I want to touch and be caressed
to breathe and live again

sometimes it's easy to believe
it's worth the pain sometimes
you wonder if your efforts were all in vain
you talk to shadows on the wall
you try so hard to understand
how all the little lies and lectures can contradict
you've lost the sense
flow into your mind
embracing like a mother's womb
flow and you will find
forgotten pictures of the moon
you think the world is all dependent on your good will
and you believe there's always someone right behind you
to pay the bill
a pretty face is not enough to conquer anything at all
a money mountain couldn't save you
you slide your back against the wall
flow into your mind embracing like a mother's womb
flow and you will find forgotten pictures of the moon
the pretty face you always trusted will turn around and speak to you
and you will realise too late
you're someone that you never knew

you are everything
I would you are found in what I do
as the moon passes slowly by
we say our words and then we cry a little bit cause we do belong
the dark seems so bright tonight
keep me close keep me warm
the stars cast a mellow light
enough for a rose a rose to be born
who can say if you remain my dear
who can tell if you will always care
but you know that I'm around to comfort you
and play the clown so you can laugh
cause we do belong
the dark seems so bright tonight
keep me close
keep me warm
the stars cast a mellow light
enough for a rose a rose to be born
cry your tears of joy
cry a tear for me
and you and everything we are
the dark seems so bright tonight
keep me close
keep me warm
the stars cast a mellow light
enough for a rose a rose to be born

I am a god
I live tomorrow here today (I am far too young to worry)
just open wide I see right through you anyway (it's so easy to be free)
reach out
reach out
you'll live forever
reach out
reach out
and I'll stand by
when the water pulls you down
when you stop to wonder why
never hesitate
just reach out for me when you're at the lost and found
when you need a glimpse of light in the lack of faith
just reach out for me
I am a god
but I don't wanna see you pray (life is too short for reproaches)
just break the bond and you will find we are the same (it's so easy to be me)
you must find strength you know I'm here for you
reach out
reach out
it's now or never
reach out
reach out
and cross that line

I could never compromise on all my dreams
I would never sacrifice my self-esteem
paint your kiss on someone elses collar
soak your sorrow with another dollar
tell me when I'm gone
"nothing can remain, you know nothing"
cut the crap shut your mouth
until it's over fed up with counting
cheap clichEs
it's really time you reach your point my dear
the reptile smile on your tender lips revealing all
I wanna know
so keep your little riddles to yourself for heaven's sake
tell me when I'm gone
I feel you waste my time
tell me when I'm gone
for then it will be fine
I'll be fine when tomorrow covers me
"no-one can be tamed, you know, no-one"
you repeat
shut your mouth until it's over
I never asked for anything
but someone who'd accept the way I am
I damn the day when you said to me "could you forgive me once again?"
now I know enough to hate myself for heaven's sake
tell me when I'm gone
I feel you waste my time
tell me when I'm gone
for then it will be fine
I'll be fine when tomorrow covers me
hard to care for what you don't respect
hard to swallow with a broken neck

don't try to seize the time we shared
for all I ever do I do for you just close your eyes
and say you care for all we ever knew
I know its true
and I will teach you how to laugh and cry
the world succumb to our pride to our pride
won't you hold on
and we'll be forgiven
just you hold on
I'll always be there for you
I know my thoughts are far away
but all I ever do I do for you
one gentle touch is worth the pain
and all we ever knew I know it's true
and I will teach you how to love me
in my dreams you're still in my embrace my embrace
won't you hold on
and we'll be forgiven
just you hold on
I'll always be there for you
I can see you
when I close my eyes
when I'm all alone
when I'm all alone
and I wish that
you could hold my hand for a little while
for a little while

no-one knows what lies behind my stare
my eyes do not reflect
and no-one knows the dreams I bear
the world I must protect
within my soul
within my soul
a thousand kings have died
I wanna know
I wanna go where horizon touches sky
tell me
tell me
all the lies again
words to justify
tell me
tell me
that it's worthwile
to get behind
the why's were all is true
I don't care if I should die today
my history remains you know,
I never really paid not even half of what I gained
a little light a second sight is all that I demand
I wanna fly I wanna die where the ocean meets the sand
tell me
tell me
all the lies again
words to justify
tell me
tell me
that it's worthwile
to get behind
the why's were all is true
deep within my mind
it's getting clearer now
all I rejected remains
tell me
tell me
all the lies again
words to justify what I must do
tell me
tell me
that it's worthwile
to get behind
the why's were all is true

too many things that could go wrong
you know we both were far too young
and everything can't make such perfect sense
I see myself in you today
I gotta find my own way now
all I want is to move on
but how I wish I could stay
I want to say I'm sorry
but now I've gone too far
and I don't want to worry
about yesterday
like I'm guilty
like I'm sad
I must fight to be lonely
to break the chain
like I miss you
what we had like if you were the only
would it be the same again?
I know I won't forget your name
and maybe we will meet again
if only to talk and try remember the good and bad,
the things we said the happy moments
that we had your sweet surrender
but there is no more to say
except the fact I'm sorry and that it's gone too far now
I don't want to worry about yesterday
like I'm guilty like I'm sad
I must fight to be lonely
to break the chain like
I miss you what we had like if you were the only
would it be the same again?
all I am a little while in time
all I see there's something wrong with me
all I know I'll never reach your mind
all I cry you know I'm crying for you

though I know you're here,
right by my side
I feel so insecure
intuition calls to mind
the memory of a cold december night
it was only you and I a true belief in neverending stories
but maybe I am blind
maybe I want too much
hand on heart
I wouldn't let you go
hand on heart
that's all you have to know
so don't turn away could it be that
I am lost in you about to lose my mind
when you're gone I find it hard to breathe
so help me through and take your time
together we could try to find the key
but maybe there's no way
maybe I want too much
hand on heart
I wouldn't let you go
hand on heart
that's all you have to know
so don't turn away
Can you hear, you hear me calling out for you
I want you near Need you here,
we've still got so much left to do
Hand on heart for you