Альбом Smile Empty Soul

Been scared and lonely
I've asked myself is something wrong with you
My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues

But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
Why I always wanna fly

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle

You always call me
And ask me how I make it through the day
I'm always fallin'
I guess it's just God's way of making me pay

But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle

When I, I wonder why I try
And I, I wonder why I bother
And I, I wonder why I cry
Why I, I go through all this trouble

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love

Silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
They won't let me go the wrong way
My mother taught me all the fables, told me how
In the end all the sinners have to pay
But...

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I don't wanna live like my mother
I don't wanna let fear rule my life
And I don't wanna live like my father
I don't wanna give up before I die

He worked so hard his bones are breaking
He wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
His good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
I don't ever want to end up like he did
And...

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When I have kids
I won't put any chains on their wrists, I won't
I'll tell them this
There's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough

In the land of dirt and plaster
Lies an army of a thousand nowhere kids
Losing ground and falling faster
Into a life that no one should have to live

We are the people that you hate
We are the bastards that you created (the fucking bastards that you created)
A generation with no place
A generation of all your sons and daughters

Behind the fake family image
Behind the smile of a thousand moms and dads
Inside the cage that we've been given
I see an image of the future that we don't have

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And what did you expect ... a perfect child
Raised by tv sets ... abandoned every mile
We never get respect ... never a fair trial

I'm just a normal man
I wouldn't hurt nothing at all
But here we are

Our leaders have a plan
I'd only kill if it's for them
Now here we are

I drove in a car and flew in a plane
To come to your house and kick your door in
Now it's down to this, it's just you and me
I'll blow your fucking head off for my country

I go to church and tithe
I go to work in a suit and tie
But this is war
I'm really not sure why
But the tv says that you are wrong
Now here we are

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My feet hurt from the sand
But still I march on gun in hand
Cause this is war
This isn't what I planned
I wanted to be so much more
But this is war

Too many weeds in the flowers
Too many pills in the pharmacy now
Too many bugs in the shower
There's too much shit in the air we breathe now

There's too much anger inside me
There's too much scarring when I bleed
There's too much therapy I need
There is no god that I have seen

There's too much doubt in my mom's words
There's too much fear in the way she sees life
I wonder if I'm just like her
I wonder if I can make myself right

You try to help
You listen well

I waited for you
I died inside my own head
And I'd die again for you

I'm faded and tired
Completely uninspired
And I'd die again for you

So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt I want to feel it bleed

I'm searching for reasons
To keep away the demons
And I'd die again for you
I wish you were near me
Could feel it when you hear me say
I'd die again for you

So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt I want to feel it bleed
You wanted me to crawl so now I'm on my knees

Why's it always have to be me
That's always left out to burn and

Stand there with your ball and chain
Bitch about what you've created
All caught up in the masquerade
You've already been paid and made it
So don't pretend to know what it's like
To feel the things that we must live through
You only see with your dying eyes
There's only one thing I will ask of you

Can you take this life
Can you make it right
Do you have the words to say to make it
All go away
You act so wise
And so refined
U can keep your lies cos I'm
Never gonna go your way

Promises of a better life
But what's wrong with the one I'm leading
Everyone has a different fight
A different wound that keeps them bleeding
So what's wrong with a little fun
Everybody needs to find their something
Is this how your gonna treat your son
Fuck 'em up and give em nothing

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Everybody needs to find their own way through life

I walk into the room
You don't have to scream I can hear you
Bad trip, the needle sticks
You get your fix from confrontation
I try to make it past
I don't wanna get into it right now
Can't this family have one day
To get away from all the pain

And through the night I see the light
Shining from the neighbor's windows
I dream of life where I'm safe
In a home where I am not alone
Some day I will lay me down
On the grass where everything is greener
It always seems so good on the other side

I'm sick of all the heat
You can taste the hate in the air
Running through this family, uncomfortably
It's burning me
Is anybody there
In your eyes there's nothing to see
Just because your dreams have died
Don't drag me down, I've still got mine

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Neighbor boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue
I say what happened to you boy, he said my daddy flew
Off the hook cos I was playin too loud
I guess he couldn't hear the tv
He said son I'm a teach you a lesson
And then he .... and then he....

Maybe it's not so good on the other side
Maybe it's not so good on the other side
But it always seems so good, on the other side

I don't have time for your solutions
And I don't wanna deal with your mistakes
No matter how much medication
The doctor says I need to take
I still say....

You're the ones that kill your babies
You're the ones that fuck your kids
You're the ones that throw each other away
You're the ones sitting in church every sunday

And I don't want your religions
And I don't need your sympathies
And I don't want a part of all your hatred
No matter how much you yell at me

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I don't know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

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With this knife I'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison for my veins

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The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In tears

Run to me
I can't live without you
I've walked up walls, over them all
So don't think you're such a queen

You're mine in a sick way
You're my radio in a hole, covered up
You're all the love that could be
But never was

Care for me
Like I need you
You're in my mind, it's only time
Before the drug you feed me ends it all

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It's ok to be what you are
Don't pretend to smile
It's ok to be what you are

By now
I should have been somewhere
Or gone to school, or fixed my hair
Back down
Tell it to someone else
Who gives a shit and needs your help

Cos I found
What I needed
And I don't need you to tell me how you feel
And if I fall
You are not the one that has to cope and deal

All my problems are for me

My god
Look at his tattoos and those earrings
He could never get
A good job
Go home and beat your kids
So they don't turn out as bad as me

Cos I found
What I needed
And I don't need you to tell me how you feel
And if I fall
You are not the one that has to cope and deal

All my problems are for me
I don't need your eyes to see
I will be what I will be

Stop coming around cause you bother me
Stupid motherfucker pull your head out your ass and see
What don't you get, was I stuttering

I try
To be the man I am
In times of broken lives
And shattered dreams and plans
Standing up to fight
The pressures and demands
Staring at the knife
And holding in your hand
What used to be your life

This world is crazy
My dreams are fading
I want my life

You fight
Your fucked up holy wars
Fire anti-christ
Jesus will come down
And help us win tonight
Now how should I feel
I think I feel alright
So tell me where to aim
I'm blinded by the light

This world is crazy
My dreams are fading
No one can save me

I want my life

And when I wake up you'll be here

Some days are better, they're better than others
Can't run forever, you're pushing me under
What a way to live my life
I'm hiding from the battles I don't want to fight
What I've become

And now it's going grey
All the lines are blurring and decayed
I can't recall exactly who's to blame..... anymore

Is it me or is it you , something isn't right
Of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
Someday I will find the courage to embrace you
Someday I will find the strength to erase you

Some days I think I'm nothing without you
Sometimes I wish that I could just kill you
What a way we live our lives
It's hard to breathe
It feels like I'm infected by my dad's disease

And now it's going grey
And you're the one I chose to feed me pain
And I'm the one you bring home so ashamed.....through their eyes

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And I see myself in heaven