Commander Venus
"The Raining Holiday"
My eyes are empty, the house is quiet now
Today has claimed and ruined me
My pulse is waiting, as boredom strangles it
I might sleep but I won't dream
Is that what I need? I wanted to see, I want to believe
So I scratch and scrape to find a reason to live in a god or a girl
Oh, I tried, I tried to abandon guilt and other things that don't exist
The hours numb me
Some words are stinging still but I don't feel them when they do
My head is open, my eyes are bleeding and they demand to see the truth
But what would that prove?
I wanted it too, I wanted it too
And I strain to see the sun, I'm just so sick of the gray and the rain
This is it, I am done
And I'm laying down, let today roll off my back
I'll be all right